Girl thing rambles

I know I sworn that I won't post anything negative in this blog. But I just hate it every time this "girl-time-of-the-month" comes. I know, too, that this is just a very awkward post. But may be my hormones drive me to. And maybe the lessons and realizations that come with it makes me wanna write about it.

So yeah, I just hate it when this visits me. I just become very irritable and I can find all the fault I can find in each person I ride with in the jeepney. Last night on my way to work, I found myself very irritated with this big man sitting next to me who almost occupied three seats when I don't even know if he's already paid for one. After really irritating me, he suddenly sang his Christmas carol medley in the jeepney and serenaded the passengers, hoping he would be given any amount possible.

This morning, there were just too many sudden change of plans that I suddenly felt everything's screwed up, when actually everything's just fine. I AM JUST FREAKING IRRITATED. And Demanding. And Annoyed. I just hate it! GRRRR. So when Lloyd met me up for our movie date, he just asked me why am I so "high-blood" with my texts. When I told him it's just the time of the month, he said "AH OK."

And from there, he just knew how to cope with my hormonal stress. He knew how to please me, and how to deal with my anxieties. He knew how to make me smile and lighten up my mood. Am I worrying too much? That's no problem, he says, then gives me easy resolutions and even back-up plans.

There was also this time earlier when I got reaaallly pissed with the ladies at the Cinema E-Plus booth who took some time to process my free Card and complimentary movie pass from GCash. So we have already waited for some time and we were already late for the movie that we are to watch, when the lady just informed us that we cannot use the complimentary pass for the MMFF movies. GAAAHD. So Lloyd had to line up again at the ticket booth to get me a ticket (he already had his while I was waiting for my E-Plus card). Finally, as we entered the Cinema, I, still pissed, just kept on telling him how sorry I am for the trouble and the time wasted. And he just held my hand, then laughed, and smiled and kissed me, and told me, "it's ok." :)

I guess what I'm trying to say is, blessed are girls whose guys just understand our monthly struggles, and even help us how to deal with them, in the sweetest way possible. I know girls alone can understand girls. But when a boy, amidst all your anxieties and senseless rants and irrational stress and all that jazz, still tries his best to make you smile and tells and shows you that you are loved and cared for, he's just something to be really thankful for.

So to all the boys out there, whose girls can really be the worst girl ever during their monthlies, and still you can make her smile and feel loved like she's the most special girl in the world, THANK YOU! You don't know how much that means to us. Again, from the bottom of our hearts, thank you! :)

Christmas simple joys

Christmas this year may have not turned out the way it used to. Mama cooked my favorite spaghetti and  Papa grilled some meat for Noche Buena, but because everyone has gotten tired of the day, we were all already asleep by 11:40 PM, few minutes before Noche Buena. Kuya TJ couldn't come over because he has duties at the hotel. And of course Kuya Maic is working thousand miles away. The worst part is, I have work on a Christmas night.

But there's just A LOT to be thankful for this season.

datebook. looove!

~ Lovely Gracee dropped by on the 24th to give me her Christmas gift. And though I was not home then and I wasn't even able to answer her call, she still exerted the effort to come around to give her gift, and to visit little Amiel. Now that's love. And for her gift: a kikay purple 2013 datebook from Tomato. Lovely! I'm now excited to plan my year. hihi. Thanks dear!


~ Got a cutesy pink cellphone accessory from one of the most wonderful couples I know: Ray and Mars. (ayun nginangatngat na ni little pogi!) eeeee...thanks lovebirds!


~ Yurie, Lloyd's inaanak was amazingly overwhelmed with our gift to her (a pink hello kitty backpack) that she didn't let go of it as soon as she unwrapped it. It just feels good to see someone appreciate a gift  you've really thought of, especially from a kid whose love is pure and sincere.


~ I know it's mababaw, but i'm reaaallly happy to have received a gift from Lloyd's Ate Cha. It was one of my random Christmas wishes fulfilled. I have always aimed to be closer to Lloyd's one and only sister, and I know this is a good start. thanks Ate!


~ Having little Amiel at home just made me really excited for Christmas day, for him. Every time he sees blinking Christmas lights, he would always go, "WOW", the sight of pure innocence and happiness.


~ After almost a year of suffering from stroke, Ate Adel is healthier and more blooming. She has gained weight, and almost back to her old self. The only thing that's missing is her walking, and she's really determined to walk very soon, or before Kuya Maic comes home on April next year. When we went to their place yesterday, there she was sitting in front of the computer, chatting with her friends on Facebook. :)


~ And I guess one of the best part of my Christmas day was Kuya Maic Skype-ing with his family. It's been tough since he worked overseas, and tougher when Ate Adel got sick. And it's just nice how technology brings the family closer even only on special days. Kuya looks better, ang gwapo! and looks healthy. And I'm thankful that his kids, Miggy and Amiel were both on a good mood that they really showed their best kulit on camera. Miggy danced and shouted while Amiel made pa-cute on camera. Super cute! Kuya's smiling at how lovely his kids are is just priceless. And of course Ate Adel is energized and refreshed after they have talked. I'm just excited for Kuya to come home on April.


~ Lastly, I am just really thankful to be with my three families on Christmas day: my own family, Lloyd's family and my officemates (yes! I got work on Tuesday night!).


It was one busy day, maybe it's just like any other day to some, but for me, Christmas is still Christmas. And if there's anything that we should be really thankful of, that is the coming of our Savior Jesus Christ. He is still the reason for this season. Despite everything that may have happened around us, may His birth remind us to be hopeful and grateful, to be loving and forgiving. And like the star shining brightly in Bethlehem, may His love shine in us, in our families, or wherever we may be.


So from my family to yours, may you have a Merry Christmas everyday and a joyful 2013 ahead.

Our Christmas family picture from last year, Amiel is still inside his mommy's tummy.

I can see clearly now....

I've been wearing eyeglasses for about half a year now, and my first pair was bought from an optometrist who just dropped by the office with her sets of lenses and eye test kits. So I had my first pair without a thorough check-up. The result was, I still had difficulty with my eyes even with my glasses on. Like my mom, I am nearsighted, and commuting was a bit challenge for me since I can't see the jeepney signboards at once. I even had to ask Lloyd what the signboards say before I hail the jeepney. I also can't see much in the mall especially if I have to meet someone. I needed to almost bump at someone to recognize him/her. And again, all these difficulties even with my glasses on. My lens grade then was -.50/-.25.

So finally last Monday, I went to Asia Pacific Eye Center to see the ophthalmologist together with my mom. There we found out that I should really be wearing a higher grade of lens. The doctor was surprised that my grade went up that high in less than 2 years. Or maybe, I was really just wearing a wrong one. So I needed to change my glasses to -1.75/-2.25 grade. Geez.

While at it, the doctor too made thorough check-up with my eyes and found out that I have optic nerves that are bigger than usual. Suspected Glaucoma. Wikipedia defines Glaucoma as an eye disease in which the optic nerve is damaged in a characteristic pattern which can permanently damage the vision of the affected eye. Am I gonna be blind?! I just hate it when doctors tell you that you could possibly have an illness that just sounds like so worse. But as he said, it's just suspected, because my optic pressure is still within normal range, which is a good sign. But still, early prevention is better than cure, so he recommended me for further diagnostics.

I called up the diagnostics center, AsPac Eye Laser Surgicenter to get myself an appointment. Their first instruction was: "Bawal ang puyat." And I went like, puyat? ano yun? With my work, how is that possible? Happily, my bosses approved my leave request last Friday night, hence I had my sleep marathon. :))

Saturday morning, feeling fresh and well-rested, I prepped up early for my scheduled check-up and headed to AsPac. They were just beside CM Morales Mall and Pavilion Mall in Binan. Luckily, there were not much patients lined up, and though I arrived 20mins late, they still accommodated me.

I had three diagnostics test: Disc Photo, OCT for glaucoma, and visual field perimetry. The two personnel who assisted me helpfully explained to me the purpose of each test, what to expect, and what their initial findings were and the possibilities that I may have glaucoma. The Disc Photo took a snapshot of my eyes, focusing mainly on the nerves. The technician said, in glaucoma, it is the optic nerve that is really affected. It is when one's nerves are bigger than 0.3 inches. Mine was 0.6. Whoa. But he added that 90% of suspected glaucoma cases were just born merely with bigger nerves, but were cleared from Glaucoma. I maybe one of them. Next text was the OCT or Optical Coherence Tomography. It is more like the CT Scan for eyes which scans like a bar code and does a thorough check of the eyes. The technician even saw which of my eye has the highest astigmatism. Last was the Visual Field Perimetry. It is more like a video game which measures the capability of the peripheral vision. Ivan, the technician, said in glaucoma, it is the peripheral vision that's first affected. Hence it aimed to check if I can still see even the smallest detail from my peripherals. So when all my tests were done, I would just have to wait for the doctor's call for interpretation once they received the results.

Earlier, while doing last minute shopping, I received a call from the eye clinic informing me they already have my results and that I can drop by to speak with my doctor. Good thing that the supermarket is just a few blocks away from the clinic, so I just waited until the doctor arrives at the clinic.

As for the results, well, doctor just told me too many jargons and medical terms that I am not confident in writing such. But basically, if there are three qualifiers on Glaucoma symptoms, I have 1/3. That makes me still a suspected glaucoma case and will be required another series of tests after six months for possible progressions. Good thing I have my health card that covers all these procedures. And I really do hope I'll be cleared from this.

Oh and by the way, I already have my new set of eyeglasses, now with a higher grade and with a clearer vision. Finally, I can sing, "I can see clearly now, the rain is gone..." :)

Oyayi

You didn't have to be a belter to sing a good tune. 

You may need to be spontaneous in coming up with a tune to sing, 

but hitting the notes really is not a requirement. 

Any hum will do. He'll love it.

You didn't have to be a good dancer. 

But you may need to have strong and enduring arms to carry him as long as he wants.

All that matters is love. Unconditional love. 

When he still would cry, or be unruly

it's his way of telling you, "please be here. don't leave me."

It's his way of telling you, he needs your time. 

He wants you by his side.

So be there. Just be there. Carry him in your arms. 

No matter how tired you are.

Love. Just love.

After all, the sweetest reward is to watch him sleeping soundly. 

Then in the middle of his deep slumber, he would give a sweet smile to tell you, 

"thanks for being here. let's play again later, ha."

Getting started. :)

Nothing much to say today. I'm just overwhelmed with joy and kilig earlier at BPI Family Savings Bank - Pacita branch. Though this is not our first, but we opened another joint passbook account to really save up for our future. And what's sweeter is that the funds were Tatay's (Lloyd's dad) early gift to us. Super sweet, right? :D

So while we were filling up the forms earlier, the bank rep kept on asking me, "Ma'am parehas po ang billing address nyo?" So I replied, "no, not yet." hihihi. (soon dear.) And all the time we were filling up everything, there are these two words I just thought of: Financial Marriage (Thanks to Mars who coined that term last night. hihi :p). Then I kept telling myself that I gotta be a good saver. Well, good thing I have my best buddy who's really persistent in reminding me of taking care of our savings. He himself is a good saver, and that always inspires me. After all, this is for US. :)

so there. yay for today! apir! :)

Magical.

It was one ordinary Sunday night of March last year, Lloyd and I were sitting on a bench in our terrace from 12:00 AM 'til about 4. When we had no more stories to tell each other about, he got his Ipod and played his cruisin' playlist. So we listened to the best love songs of all time. There were hits by David Pomeranz, America, Ariel Rivera, The Carpenters. Talk about Classics! We're both music lovers that we can appreciate every aspect of a song, from the harmony, to the baseline, to the lyrics, to the feelings of the song. For this night, he's the DJ. He played each song that he felt was apt for the exact feeling at a certain minute. So suddenly, the ordinary night turned out to be one of the sweetest nights ever. And listening to such songs made me reminisce to a lot of firsts: first time we talked, we went to church together, our first month as friends, first time he held my hands. gaaahd. Magical night. And to further intensify my reminiscin', he told me, "so ganito ba 'yung pakiramdam?" then played this song that really best described my feelings. Yes, suddenly it's magic. He's a magic.

So I closed my eyes, rested my head on his shoulder with his arms wrapped around me as we continued feeling the song. So that moment, I prayed. I thanked the Almighty. For this. I knew that this is something I have really prayed hard for. Not just this certain moment, but this entire relationship. Him and me. I feel at home with him. He is home. and I couldn't thank God enough for making our lives meet.  When the song was over, I looked up to him smiling to tell him how he has filled me with joy.  Right there and then, he asked me of a four-word interrogative sentence every girl would love to be asked. :)  With my mind at peace and a thankful heart full of love, of course I answered him yes.